Drama

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Biasalah.Pre exam Syndrome.

Sem 3,macam biasa kena daftar subjek Generic and Elective.

Tak cukup credit , tak boleh grad.

Huahuahua.

The only option that I have for the elective subject.

Drama dan Teater.

Ekeceli ada 3.Business,Healthy Lifestyle and Drama.

Tapi aku dah x boleh ambil business sbb last sem dah ambil,healthy lifestyle memang tak lah.

Sebab ada cheers kena menari.

So last,nak tak nak kena ambil jugak lah drama.

Sobssssssss.

So,adalah jugak terfikir terkena berlakon ke apa.

Dah berangan nak jadi artis dan bajet retis dah.

Baru semalam mimpi berlakon Narnia dengan Aslan n Prince Caspian.

*Hakhakhak.Haktuih*

So 1st class masuk,

Definition of theatre?Guano bermulanya wayang dalam masyarakat Tanah Melayu?How these changes happen in the community?

Slides,buku,exam fully in Malay language.

Tapi lecturer translate slide dalam bahasa melayu jadi omputih.

Aku harian kenapa nak cakap omputih pulak bila exam,notes semua dalam bahasa Melayu?

Tapi tak pe lah,suka hati dialah.

Rupanya,subjek ni belajar sejarah rupanya.

Kena beli buku *Pementasan Bangsawan* lagi T_T.

Baru nak photostat,tapi lecturer dan warning,"Melanggar etika".

Okais.Okais.Melayang 50 hengget.

Eheh,dramatik pulak.

First time aku masuk auditorium yang wall semua dicat warna hitam,lampu malap hanya dua yang terpasang.

Fakulti Seni memang unik dan penuh nilai estetika.

Phew.

Relationship

Had a conversation with a friend of mine.

"Hang tak paham,aku rasa sunyi,aku rasa nak kawin lah.Hahaha.Gaji ada,rumah dah ada,kereta dah ada.Balik kerja penat,aku dok tengok tv ja.Last tv jugak yang tengok aku.Makan nasi kedai hari-hari.Bosan lah."

"Hahahahaha.Hang ni poyo lah.Rilek lah brader.Banyak lagi benda boleh buat.Tapi kalau rasa dah mampu apa semua,hang kawin lah".

But deep in my heart,I wanna say to you.Bro,if you want to get married just because you feel empty,and you expect your future spouse to fulfill your feeling of emptiness,just forget it.

Expectation,may be a fatal mistake.

Expectation,bila letak pada manusia.Takkan ke mana.

Biar Tuhan,letakkan hala tuju,relationship ke mana.

Jangan tergesa-gesa,tengok kawan sejawat semua sudah kahwin,so rasa nak kahwin juga.

Marriage,is not a game.

Jangan letak pengharapan pada manusia.Letak pada Tuhan.

Moga dia tunjuk jalan.Moga kau diberi jalan bahagia berbait muslim kawan !

May Allah Ease

Feeling so uncomfortable lately.

Thinking of something that should not be thought.

Time flies so fast.

May Allah give us a way out whenever we feel trapped by life,hardships and sadness.

Emotion.

I don't want you to control my life.

Thinking of something again and again.

"Hidup tak lama.Cuma kita dengan Tuhan".

There are times when I feel like I wanna be myself.

I hate saying sorry for being myself.

But I have to,I don't wanna be rude.

I speak what I wanna speak.

Nobody loves me as my Mom does.

But at the age 21,I can't keep this feeling and follow all your decisions anymore.

I need to speak out what I want in my life.

This is my life.

Please give me space to dictate it on my own.

Allah teaches me don't depend on people,don't depend on myself.

Depend on Him.

I don't want to be a rebellous person.

Guide me.

One day,I will go back to my origin.

Ultimate purpose of life,jumpa Tuhan.

May everyone forgive all my sins.

I am sorry.

Truly sorry.

Sorry.

Hope and Broken

Someone ever told me one thing.

Treat others well. Help people in need if you are able to do so. That time, I was like 'Amende hang? Common gila ayat. Petik buku esei ke brader? Hahahahaha. 'Ngek.'

That person put a smiley icon, and we just continue our conversation as usual which is full of stupid jokes.

As time flies, I meet lots of people who come from different family background, have different mentality and perception. The way we think, believe and how we react on certain issues might be so much different. I realize that to cope with others is not an easy thing. We might hurt others, and others might hurt us too. Even a simple thing can give a very big impact on us. Simple thing that can hurt us for days, months and even years.

' Treat others well '

Words, that keep ringing in my mind, to treat others well, and to forget of how bad you have been treated by that person.

Help others even if they ever refused to help you. Don't blame.

''Hidup mudah kalau kita tak simpan. Mintak tolong, if dia tak nak tolong tak apalah. Buat macam biasa. Kita mintak, itu hak dia nak tolong atau tidak. Susah kalau kita ingat kebaikan kita saja. Live and be a good girl ''

Meaningful. Thank you.

Exam is Something.Good Luck :)

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

Wishing all the best to UPSR candidates :)

I still remember that poyos day when I did not get straight As in UPSR.I cried like hell,slammed the door upon reaching home,locked myself in the room for hours and did not go out for almost one week.Heart-broken.I did ask permission from mak to re-check the paper and mak said 'Upsr je pun.Usaha lagi.Bukan rezeki.Banyak lagi exam.Rilek lah'.A B in exam slip was a horrible nightmare to me.

Fine.Fine.

I took an extra subject in PMR just for the sake of revenge.9 subjects instead of 8.

Poyos.Poyos.

Zaman tak paham lagi definition and the importance of education.

But exam is something.Can't deny that its very important especially in Malaysia.So I never forget to say Good Luck to all exam candidates ! 

To say that :

'upsr bukan ada apa pun' is not a good thing'.

' PMR and SPM is just a slip ' bukan apa-apa when you tell other people especially excellent students,for me,its a big humiliation for them.They do make efforts and show their responsiblity to achieve their dreams.I know your intention might be good,to persuade those who do not perform well in the exam for not giving up in life,but the way you express it,is wrong.

Yes,maybe there are lots of great people out there who are rich,well respected,tak pass pun upsr,spm,but itu mereka.For me,you have to try,because what else we can do since our education system is like this?

Its like a classroom which consists of monyet,gajah,kura2,ikan and the ultimate goal is to climb a tree.

But just try.Try.Try.You can do it.

Susah untuk ubah sistem dan menyenangkan hati semua pihak.

Yang atas terus menjadikan kita sebagai white mice,yang boleh dipatahkan tengkuk tanpa menggunakan chloroform, diambil ileum dan ditest sama ada menjadi atau tidak experiment mereka.

Pedih.Sakit.Tapi kita tak boleh layan itu semua dengan hanya sebuah demonstrasi dan riot jalanan yang menjadi fashion saban tahun.

Relax

Take a deep breath and relax.

Plug in your headphones and let the world around you fade away.